i feel so high. argh. been a long time since i last felt like this. it's a miracle i can even type like shit.

i hate it when i feel like this. because i have lots of crap to say. i hate myself i hate i hate i hate myself.

i never wanted to hurt her.

i never wanted to backstab anyone.

i never wanted to destroy anyone.

i never wanted to be who i was. I NEVER WANTED TO.

is this who i really am? is this who i was. it this God's plan?

i wish i wish I WISH TO BE LIKE LAST YEAR AGAIN. THE QUIET PERSON WHO NV TALKED THE QUIET PERSON WHO NEVER UNDERSTAND MANDARIN.

WHY MUST I BE LIKE THIS. ARGH.

im fucking drunk i swear!